May 17, 2016

 I got baby pictures from one of the sixth graders today which is unexpected because we started asking for them several months ago and it has been a really long time since I got any. It's also about a week before the slideshow is played, so very last minute. I think now there are only three kids that I didn't get pictures from. I was able to scan and edit the pictures I got today, so I'm back to being caught up there. I still need to compile everything. And finish editing the pictures of the retiring sixth grade teacher. It takes awhile to get everything put together when I just do a static background, and this year I was wanting to use a rainy window video as the background, which will take a lot more work. I'm starting to feel the stress.

I am also feeling the stress about my MAP spreadsheets. I don't think I'm going to have time to finish them. It's going to have to become something I bring home with me if I want to finish it because the linking thing has broken. That has added a ridiculous amount of extra time and effort to fix.

When I wasn't editing pictures or playing with spreadsheets, I had classes in the lab throughout the day. It was pretty uneventful. At least at this moment that is how I am remembering it.

This afternoon I got an email from the PR lady at the public library telling me I needed to call the head of adult services at the library because she apparently called me a few days ago and left a message about setting up an interview. I never got the message. At first I thought it may have been when I was traveling and didn't have cell phone service. But I just realized I put my home phone down on my resume so maybe she called that instead of my cell phone, which was listed on my application, and I tend to ignore the home phone because it is always telemarketers or politicians. I'll have to check the answering machine.

Regardless, I planned on calling the librarian after work but she ended up emailing me first, right before I left work. So I emailed her back. By the time I got home she had emailed again and after a couple more messages back and forth we set up an interview for tomorrow afternoon. I spent the rest of the night feeling nervous and woefully unprepared. I imagine those feelings will only continue to grow as the interview draws nearer. I've only had two interviews in my life and only one felt like a real one, with a three-person panel and interview-like questions. I thought that interview went well but I didn't get the job (thankfully) so I must have done something wrong. I am afraid of going into an interview where I get asked questions that I can't come up with a decent answer for. Every time I look at potential interview questions, in the comfort of my own home, I get stumped by them. And it will only be worse in an actual job interview. Which I have tomorrow. I don't know if there will be multiple people there or just the adult services librarian. I would prefer one-on-one but I imagine it is more of a panel interview situation. I'm worried that even though I've been totally entrenched in school for the past two years they are going to ask me a simple question about it and I'm going to completely blank. I shouldn't feel this anxiety because I volunteer at the library and have met all of the potential interviewers, but I still feel it. She gave me the option of having the interview tomorrow or next Tuesday. Having a week to prepare myself would have been nice but it would have also become all-consuming and I kind of want to just rip the band-aid off quickly. I'll also probably need all the time I can get next week to finish up the slideshow by next Wednesday. I'm going to review as much information as I can before tomorrow afternoon and then hope for the best.

Tonight I did some of that research but I also watched YouTube videos and played a little bit of Minecraft. I'm fixing up my small house in my new world and I finished my small garden. For my house I think I just need to put a roof on over the second floor and I'll be done. But I also want to add in a basement at some point. So I'll never really be done because there is always something to do. It is nice escaping into Minecraft again. If only for a little while.

Now I'm going to go to bed so I can get a decent amount of sleep and wake up tomorrow, well-rested and ready for my interview. Which won't happen until the afternoon but whatever. Oh, and I'm also worried about leaving work early enough so I can go home, change, and get back across town to the library. I always end up leaving later than I originally planned and I don't want to be late for my interview. Ugh. I don't like stress. I'm going to bed.