April 21, 2013

Today was kind of a crappy day. Not in terms of things happening but because nothing happened. I have the constant urge to be productive and an equally powerful lack of motivation. I hate the feeling of wasting my life. Which I am currently doing. And have been doing for years now. Like, at least five years. Which is a long time when I'm only practically twenty-eight. It is perpetually frustrating.

I continued to mess with the Live Gamer Portable and I'm chalking that up to just being a piece of crap. At least for me. Being an early adopter has come back to bite me in this particular instance. No matter what I try, nothing works. And it hasn't been around long enough for there to be a lot of videos or help out there on the internet. I'm still waiting for the forums to come through but I'm only going to give that a few more days and then I'm going to send it back. The workaround I found for the Elgato to capture PC gameplay tends to be hit-and-miss but with the LGP, which is supposed to capture PC gameplay out of the box, has been all miss.

I kind of caught up on my DVR but I am finding it hard to feign interest in television. I still like Psych but that has been kind of dark the last couple of episodes and I'm not a fan of conflict. Doctor Who may be good but again, I can't find the interest. When I am in a downer mood, I just don't care about TV or movies. I watch them and dislike myself for sitting there and watching them, rather than doing something productive. I've been watching YouTube videos but they are going the way of TV in terms of my interest level. It was announced yesterday that Mr. Sark is leaving Machinima, which is a bummer because I have been a big fan of his humor for the last few years and looked forward to all the weekly videos in that time. It kind of sucked when Seananners and Hutch left but Sark was the real reason I watched. And Hutch and Seananners have gotten back into making videos so I don't really have to worry about that. He says he will still be around doing Inbox and Radio but we'll see how long that lasts.

I have also been in the mood lately to throw money at my unhappiness. Try to buy a little. The Live Gamer Portable was kind of that but I was really looking for something to do this summer. A little motivation to play through all the PC games I have finally. Recording and editing videos would give me something to do and let me feel a little productive maybe. But that is falling through slightly. I also plan on getting a small tablet, most likely the Nexus 7, so I can write while I'm at the theater over the summer. But I haven't gotten around to doing that yet. Mainly because summer is still several weeks away and I think there are still rumors out there that it is going to drop in price. I want to spend money but I don't want to waste my money. A new TV is also on my list, one that could do double-duty as a large third monitor for my computer, but as I have mentioned, watching TV is not really my thing at the moment, and I don't really need a third monitor. Understanding the difference between want and need can be annoying. What I should really do is just put my money into my retirement account. And I plan on putting a significant about into that because I new year has started and I am able to contribute again, but I don't think I will be putting in all of my money. Some unnecessary spending will be taking place.

I have had the urge to exercise but I am more afraid of the potential kidney stone lurking in the wings. I don't want to aggravate it until after testing is over with. But exercising makes me feel better about myself. It improves my mood and self-image. Both good things. Which I can't really count on when my kidney's are currently waging a fear campaign against me. I can still do some pushups and squats, slowly, but I am staying away from situps. And any fast movements.

Tonight I got a response on the LGP forums and the Avermedia people want to remotely access my computer to see if they can figure out what's going on. Sounds potentially fishy but maybe they can make things work. Or decide it is the unit itself and send me a new one. I would feel better if it was the unit so I would at least have that excuse and not feel completely inept. We'll see what happens.

Now I am going to continue doing laundry, watching YouTube videos, and maybe record my day before a stranger logs into my computer and starts messing with stuff.