January 1, 2014

The first post of the new year and it will be just like all the others. This was also my first opportunity to write the date and I not only started to write December, I also wrote 2013 without even giving it a second thought.

There was nothing going on today. I slept in after being up so late and then didn't do a thing with my day. Other than some exercise and video games. I played a bit of Animal Crossing and paid off my home loan so I could build the next part of it, which I think is a second floor. The town government apparently had the day off so I wasn't able to build a coffee shop that was proposed by the museum guy today. It seems like every time someone suggests I build something it is on a day where I can't do anything about it. Annoying.

Today was Chipotle night but in name only because I didn't go to pick it up. It started snowing this afternoon and there was something over an inch on the ground and still coming down when I would have left to go to Chipotle. If I don't have a legit reason to leave the house when it's snowing, I'm not going to leave the house. I like staying home and not having to worry about the idiots on the road around me. My sister also stayed home so it turned out to just be a normal night. My sister made hummus and pitas for me yesterday but she didn't drop them off last night because I wasn't here, and I didn't stop by her house last night, and she didn't come over tonight. So I have the knowledge that all that delicious food is in existence yet it remains out of my grasp. It is a shame.

Tonight I wanted to play some Battlefield 4 multiplayer but it was broken. It kept failing to connect to stuff. This is why I liked the last game better on Xbox than on PC. Just getting into a game took forever and it was incredibly frustrating. Seems like they kept that feature in this game as well. Next I tried to play Skyrim but it kept popping up in windowed mode and the bottom was hidden by the taskbar and I couldn't adjust the size of the window or make it go fullscreen. I could have hidden the taskbar but I spent so much time trying to figure out how to properly fix it that I lost interest in the game.

So I ended up playing Far Cry 3. I am liking it so far but it seems like it will be another giant, open-world game that I will never finish. I need to stick with smaller games. Ones that are more in the scope of my attention span. While playing the game I found out the game had sharks, which I didn't know beforehand. This was discovered when I jumped into the ocean to get away from some bad guys. I had just made it around a big rock and out of danger when I was suddenly attacked by a shark. I jumped. I texted my friend that the most terrifying way to find out there are sharks in a game is to be attacked by one when you're in the ocean. He replied that it is also the most terrifying way to find out there are sharks in the real ocean. Very true.

I am really good at giving up things. It is incredibly easy and it makes me feel like I'm actually doing something, when in fact I am doing nothing. I need to get better at actually doing things. It goes along with the motivation thing. My life needs to progress. And there is nothing like two weeks off from work to make me fall back into getting lost in my head. I don't like it but mostly because I know I am making sense yet I can't easily change things that are so engrained in who I am as a person. It sucks.