April 24, 2015

 I am so exhausted right now. I think part of it is dehydration but most of it is just life. I don't like it.

Today was much better than yesterday. There was testing but it was the same classes as yesterday for the state assessments, and most of them had finished both parts yesterday, which left just a handful of kids in each class. Those kids managed to take almost their entire testing session, but there was still more downtime than yesterday. The day ended with a MAP test, and I was going to leave early and leave a para with the last two kids but they both managed to finish by the time I finished shutting everything down. So it worked out.

My favorite substitute was around today and she stopped by to talk in between tests. I showed her my presentation and she really liked it, which is good to hear. I'm still really happy with it, despite the fact that it was supposed to be a group project.

My drive down was uneventful, and for the first or second time ever I didn't get screwed on the last stretch of highway coming into town. I thought about maybe stopping to use the restroom but when I saw there weren't any trucks in front of me and I just kept going. It was amazing being able to drive the speed limit.

There are two classes meeting this weekend and I ended up running into one of the ladies I work with who is a year ahead of me in the program. Small world. We are meeting in a new building and the classroom is small, hot, and not really built for presentations because half of the desks and chairs are facing the wrong way. Mine was one of those so for the presentation portion I ended up moving a chair off to the side of the room so I didn't completely throw my neck and back out of whack by twisting my body and craning my head to see.

The presentations tonight were pretty interesting, covering everything from movie posters to picture books for older readers to ghost hunters to church choir sheet music. Some of them had a lot of information which made me feel a little inferior but we'll cross our fingers. It was interesting to see the ordering of most of the presentations somewhat followed my ordering. Probably because I kind of just went down the list of objectives, but there was no real set order so it is interesting that there is the same kind of flow.

I had a conversation with my partner after glass, and that sucked because I do really like her as a person. The groups were made based on personality scores and we are both very similar. I'm also not good at holding grudges. They are a waste of time and effort. But she still majorly dropped the ball and I think there is some sort of group evaluation at the end of tomorrow. I probably won't totally throw her under the bus but at the same time I'll be honest, at least from my perspective of events.

There is supposed to be a lot of severe weather here but it either hasn't hit yet or it went by us. With the classroom being so hot it felt amazing at 66 degrees outside after class. I drove to the hotel with the windows down listening to Incubus and if I wasn't so exhausted I would probably still be out there driving around.

But it is now late. And by late I mean not even 10:30PM. Which is ridiculous. My eyes feel like it is four o'clock in the morning. I need to run through the presentation real quick before bed, though. Maybe make some additions and finalize some things. I printed out my script but odds are good I'll probably just hold it and not look at it. And if I do look at it, it will just be for pretend because I'll be in the presentation zone where I lose all track of time and location and just kind of fall into the abyss. Anyway, I'm going to do that and then go to bed. Hopefully before eleven o'clock.