October 25, 2015

 I think I am beginning to hit a wall when it comes to school. On paper, since last January I have only had two weeks where I wasn't taking a class. One week between Spring and Summer, and one week between Summer and Fall. I actually had almost two weeks after Summer because I finished early but I was still technically enrolled in two classes. Even when I have had downtime there was still the stress of being in a class, even if it was just floating beneath the surface. It's exhausting and I am starting to feel a bit burnt out. Part of it could also be do to me just going into one of my slumps where I generally feel like crap, but I think that is in turn, due to constant schoolwork. I'm not a fan of this feeling.

I spent my morning and a couple hours after lunch reading textbook chapters and articles. That's all I managed to do today. I wanted to do the assignment for this week but that involved watching an hour-long webinar, summarizing it, and talking about it from the perspective of the type of library we want to work in. That last bit is part of the reason I didn't do it today because the few webinars that sounded really interesting to me pertained more to a public library than an academic library. Also, the quality of webinars are always shit. They're almost always just PowerPoint slideshows and the microphones are hard to listen to. I just couldn't put up with an hour of that today after all of the dry reading I did earlier. Hopefully tomorrow after work.

I also didn't work on my research paper at all. I've got just under three weeks to finish it. Plenty of time if I would actually put the time in and work on it. I am reminded that I really dislike writing research papers, even though this one is on an interesting topic. I like doing the research (most of the time), which is why I want to be a librarian, but I don't like putting it all together in paper form. I'll get through it.

Tonight after dinner I played more Minecraft. I added a few more cross stitch patterns. That was easily the highlight of my day. Just getting to turn off my brain and focus on counting blocks for various patterns.

I think we have a full week of work this week. Maybe. I'm kind of looking forward to that because I've had enough time sitting at home, feeling crappy because I'm not being productive. Hopefully being back at work and around people will get me out of my funk.