A less than productive day. I was going to look seriously into
graduate school today but I didn't make it any further than reading
the websites for a few of the schools I am looking at. I always get
tripped up when the application essay wants me to write about my
reason for applying and future goals. And when I need to talk about
the most important issue concerning libraries today. For the
personal statement, I'm lost. I don't like talking about myself to
begin with, and on top of that, I have no clue about my future. I
just want to be a librarian and work someplace and learn new things
every day. I don't think that will be sufficient or articulate
enough for a personal statement.
And with the rest of my day I didn't really do anything. I have a
severe lack of personal motivation. It is insane and I hate it.
When I know there is something I could or should be doing, I can
easily sit and stare at nothing for hours on end, completely lost in
my head. Rather than working to improve myself, I want a motivation
pill. Or someone with a cattle prod.
Tonight I drove around with my mom and sister to look at Christmas
lights. There were still quite a few up but it seemed like a lot had
already been taken down. I think the world would be a better place
if Christmas lights were up all year. That should be a requirement.
After getting home I finished up the Battlefield 4
singleplayer campaign. I enjoyed it but it was incredibly short.
There are three different endings, not major because they happen in
the last thirty seconds of the game, but I want to go back and get
the other two because I get an achievement for it. Unfortunately you
have to play through the entire last level over again, I can't just
start from my last checkpoint. So there is a chance I won't go back
and play it, but I also want to play the game again, maybe run
through on Easy, so I can collect all the hidden dog tags. I got a
couple but then I stopped going too far out of my way to look for
them.